Anxiety ridden

It's almost 5am and I've been up for almost three hours. I am totally having a panic attack about my first paper that is due on Tuesday. It really shouldn't be that difficult, but in normal Jessica-fashion I am on the verge of tears about finishing it. The thing is, if I don't finish it today it wont happen. I am still working 50+ hours a week at work and I at least know that realistically I wont do it during the week. Not because I'm a slacker, but mostly because there isn't enough time in my days. That being said I think the anxiety is because of the deadline. I apparently don't do all that well with one. That seems odd considering I have a million deadlines at work and I reach them easily--granted usually with a 50+ hour work week.

Amie is designing a new logo (which looks amazing!) among other things for my job and she has been able to witness the chaos I endure daily. She was fairly wide-eyed after meeting my boss--mostly because he is a bit of a whirlwind and is quite intense. As soon as he left the room she looked at me and said she could never work here but that I seem to thrive on it--notice no quotation marks because she probably said it way more eloquent than that--and I do thrive on it. I am usually pretty stressed out, but I think that has more to do with the mixing of the chaos of school with the chaos of work.

So here I am adding to my anxiety by procrastinating...

Posted by Jess | Sunday, October 02, 2005